What to do What to do?

We all know them and often have them. Those days where you feel like the Mad Hatter in Alice in Wonderland running around always late for a very important date! There just don’t seem to be enough hours in the day, and that ever present clock tick tock tick tock!!

After a nice relaxing weekend, where we caught up with family from Canada and basically vegetating in a near to brain-dead state in front of the television. It was back to the salt mines we went today. Well my illusion of a relatively peaceful day was shattered in about an hour after running to and fro like the Mad Hatter when the boss arrived. Innocently enquiring after a letter he was supposed to check, the response was certainly not a pleasing one. I was accused of being stupid, incompetent and incapable among other things after being sworn at. For the sake of financial reasons only (believe you me it is purely financial!) I have until now put up with this regular torrent of abuse. Maybe it was the day, maybe the time of month or the moon – I don’t know but I argued back. BIG MISTAKE!! do not under any circumstance argue with a lawyer!! (sorry K) because it makes it a million times worse. Result boss humiliated me and I landed up sobbing my heart out at my desk. An hour later he acted as if nothing had happened – my poor nerves were completely shot by now and happily dictated an email to me.

I sit on the horns of a dilemma. Do I stay and work for a man whom I despise just for the sake of money (of which I have little thanks to my appalling spending habits) or do I stick to some principal and tell him to shove his job where it hurts? Decisions, decisions!! One gets to a point where one is tired of constant abuse and tirades on a continual basis, but in a country where jobs are scarce and so many would kill for a job what does one do? I believe I’m better than just answering the phone and doing the typing, but even after four years of trying I am no better off than when I first started, except for an average increase. I know lots of people face the same dilemma as I do and it is something I just don’t know anymore. My spirit is crushed, my confidence shot and I just have to wonder what lesson I’m being taught here?

As he spoke those immortal words of which I can totally identify with. “Frankly my dear I don’t give a damm”.

Stay tuned…